I don’t know what I’m doing.

I have no idea what I’m doing.

That’s probably something anyone could say, really, because I don’t believe there is a single person in this world who can say they know what they’re doing for a 100%. This probably doesn’t make any sense now. I know. But for the n* time in my life I wish I knew what I was doing, because uncertainty is a bitch. And this quote is actually somewhere on Tumblr, with a nature picture on the background. Damn hipsters ruin everything.

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Anyway. Yes, I hate not knowing, and except for those people I like to call “fools” who love not knowing what life is about and write about it on Medium, I don’t know any persons who feel different from me. I mean, of course they’re different, I was just emphasizing the other part.

I mean, it’s probably okay, right? It’s okay, I guess, because if everybody feels that way, then you’re not supposed to feel alone in this, right? Like… When you’re asking yourself why do you feel so lonely on a Sunday when all you did was eat, read, watch 2 movies and take care of your cat, it’s okay not to know why. Or like when you find yourself crying in the middle of the night for no reason, it’s okay not to know, right? I’m sure everyone does that. And I’m also sure that by making these last 2 sentences sound like funny examples, no one will take me seriously. And if they do, they’ll probably say something like “it’s not okay to share this, you know”. No, I actually don’t know.

I also don’t know what depression is. When I don’t find my answers to those questions above that sounded funny but aren’t, I go and say “Oh, it’s just because I’m a little depressed” or “Woo hoo, spring asthenia is kicking in”. And yes, it’s probably true, but the fact is, it’s not a diagnosis given by a doctor. It’s just stupid Tumblr posts and 2 movies on a Sunday afternoon. And that’s because nobody really cares about finding out what it is that they’re doing. Assuming is a lot easier, and taking others seriously is something people in general cannot deal with. Meaning “no, depression is not a real thing”. It’s just the weather, pollution, the situation in Iraq and the kids in Africa. That’s probably why we can’t have nice things.

You have to be kinda selfish to be depressed. And in times like these, you do not want to even seem selfish.

Not okay to share stuff like this on the Internet, why should people know, right?Ā You know what? People have to just deal with it. It’s the same as swearing on the Internet. Sure, they don’t like hearing it, but it’s part of language. And of culture, if I may say so. You know that if you swear, someone could feel offended, and that’s because they actually feel uncomfortable. Why spear them? Why keep feelings to yourself when they mean something? Why not just call things as they are and as a reaction to people who do that, pay some respect and show trust?

It’s better if we don’t know, though. Ignorance is bliss. Ā Right?

Right.

 

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The distraction Gifs come from giphy.com. Yeah, I bothered.Ā 

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The truth about being in your 20’s

I’ve had it with all the crap online about how you’re supposed to act in your twenties and what you’re supposed to do and where you’re supposed to work. Honestly, journalists from Forbes and “marketing gurus” from Neverland, p`lease. Yes, you do have good writing and I enjoy reading most of your posts, but lately I start feeling sorry for myself and for thousands of other 20 years old fellows. I have had it with infographics and slideshares on hiring and firing up to here (imagine my hand going 50 cm above my head, and I’m 168 cm tall, ok?). I have had it with people who have no idea on what they want from an employee in their 20’s. One moment it’s “trips you must take in your 20’s”, the next it’s “get an internship fast or I’ll never hire you”. We just came out of schools’ benches and we try to figure it all out and everyone is bombarding us with questions like “what’s next?” or “how are you gonna earn your living now?” You think we’re not panicked enough, to have that thrown at us? Of course we are. And I’m saying this as an employed girl in her twenties, working in social media. And yes, it’s a job. When people give you the responsibility to take care of their online image, it’s a job (and off the record, to all “PR ladies” out there, please stop saying you’re getting paid to be on Facebook like it’s a big deal, that’s not social media, kthxbye).

So where was I? Oh, yes. I am an employed girl. In her twenties. Who has no idea if this social media thing is going to last for more than another 3 years and how she is going to continue making a living after that. Not all of us are made to be entrepreneurs, some like to be the support in a team, just saying. I remember how much I struggled to get hired after I had my fair share of internships and jobs, plus a “study abroad” semester, things that I have been told matter in a resume. Well, guess what? I tried for two months. Two months! Sent updated and good resumes to jobs that I knew were right for me (I’m not stupid, I know where I stand and what I can do), personalized my resume for the profile they were looking for, got three phone calls back, from companies I either had no idea they existed or which had something different in mind in terms of my job in their office. And all that so that I can have a good life after and during school years (because I’m not done yet, by the way), have a retirement fund for when I get old and unable to work and maybe, just maybe, have a vacation once a year. And I’m 23. And because of all these “you must do this and that” articles of yours I panic and start thinking that it’s already too late for me to have a career. My years have passed. Why don’t you hire a 14 year old that already has his app uploaded on iTunes? I heard there are millions of them. (…)

I understand that when you were in your twenties, things were different and you worked hard to get to the top, that place where you are now. Maybe you even had to work in McDonald’s to pay for college. But if you did, aren’t you supposed to empathize with those who do the same thing now? To empathize with those who were not as lucky as some of us to get an internship or a job and now they have to work at Subway so that they could be a lawyer one day? It doesn’t make them less smart, I’d say they’re smarter because they’ve got it going: doing what they can to STAY in school. That’s what it is in the end.

Plus: what’s wrong if we do not choose to work like that? What if we decide to dedicate ourselves to volunteering or working abroad with short term jobs so that we could travel and see the world? What if we choose to start a family right after finishing college? Is that wasted potential? I think not. The world needs all these people.

In conclusion, in such a bad economy, stop blaming it on us. There are many young and qualified people for your marketing openings. Just admit that you can’t afford to hire and we’ll believe you. The thing is articles like “do this and that” don’t work for us anymore because we already know what to do, but we can’t find a place where to do it. And yes, we do get out of coffee shops and go to work, that’s how we pay rent, among other things.

source: http://mymusicexec.com/?p=1385
source: http://mymusicexec.com/?p=1385